Being in a relationship for 5yrs, dreaming about retirement and almost making plans for kids, break up took a huge toil on me. The worst being "we listened to you, you failed. Now you have to listen to you coz we know what is good for you".
I did. Not that I had no option. But, I thought maybe they are right. And I got married. Nothing was right from the day we met till the wedding: I wanted to run away. It was not the possessiveness but men are superior mentality that was killing me. How can I live I thought; but yes by now I had no option.
I am a happy person; I find things that makes me happy or make sure I'm happy with what I have got. I chose the later. The first 6 months of marriage were horrible; I hardly ate food. His thoughts and mine clashed, I broke down to mother. She had few words and I knew that would be it "it's common you have to adjust".
Since then, my world has been just that. Those words; no, I'm not adjusting. I'm living a very happy life. How? Twitter has been my saviour in that aspect. I knit a story, of how my husband should be. And I believe and trust that is how it is. I have been running away from reality and will continue to do so. Why? Because I tried telling this to two people; they just didn't understand. And I'm scared my imagination will be messed up too.
Why all this as part of gratitude? The man has given me two things - being independent (commuting wise) - he actually had the patience to teach me driving for 6 months and bonds !!
And relationships differ no? Like how Sachin is an amazing batsman but a bad captain?! Yeah so!
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